Day 2 Carb addiction withdrawals....

I am feeling great adn can hardly believe I lost more weight. I feel fine, not too hungry dont' think of food. great easy recipies with real food that I eat all the time. Loving this plan. I can't believe I lost another almost 4 pounds. I have never lost this much weight. I know when I got on the scale on Monday, it really depressed me to know I had gained so much weight. I know that I am making big changes and that Heavenly Father is helping me, and moving this mountain of weight. After losing almost 10 I am very motivated. I am feeling good about this and know it is not gimmicky, just eating food that stimulate fat loss..healthy foods. Dairy veggies protein fruits. I will start my next phase in a few days and it will be like a mediterranean diet. blood sugars down! Blood pressure down! Weight Down! Win win! I can't wait to see waht happens in just three weeks. Final thought.. I had forgotten how addicted to carpohydrates(the bad ones) I was...I have had headaches for a few days and I am sure it is detoxing and going off those bad carbs I was eating. I need to realize how crappy that feels, so I will never want to go through detox again! I have been drinking plenty of water. I am so happy my daughter is eating better and taking after me! I loved having a good healthy snack of pistachios and watermelon with her yesterday!

Day 1

Was loving the digest diet. never thought of food. felt good. ate normal foods and somehow lost 6 lbs....that waa great. there really are no gimmicky foods.. all normal foods, no weird supplements. They say that the foods that we are encouraged to eat are fat releaser foods. Yeah for that, if they do that. I am glad to be back on track. we had a family home evening on exercise, as our family wants to get more active again. It's hard when my knee is messed up. we foound some cute charts that tell us to eat so many veggie, fruits and water, do sit ups, push ups etc...Eilee loves it and is drinking her water. will see the orthopedic dr tonight. hope I dont' need surgery. I need to work this week and for the next two months. Life is good. I am moving forward, and in the right direction. Feeling happy and hopeful.

Starting over again

I am starting a new weight loss diet from readers digest. It is called "the digest diet" I researched the pros and cons. there were no cons. Real food. easy to follow. On the first day, I swear I am peeing a ton! I am not drinking a lot extra or eating too many foods with diuretic properties. It says you will eat foods that release fat. also my blood sugars went down to 114 this afternoon! so far so good. If Only I can get my knee better. It popped and made noises and it hurts to bend it. and elevate it too. I am going ot see a dr tomorrow hope it is nothing serious. I need to be able to work to support our family through the furlough, as my hubby loses 10% of his paycheck for hte next three months. I feel good about this program. am excited to try something new. I have gained 20-30 pounds since my lowest. NOT GOOD AT ALL~ I was preparing a family home evening lesson and found a good thought. all things, unless constantly acted upon are in a state of digression. Nothing is in neutral. you are either moving forward, or moving back. Take a new piece of furniture. the day it was finished, it started to deteriorate...break down get old. just like a car, once you drive it off hte lot, it looses value. we need to take care of it etc.. I figure this relates to our bodies. We are either taking care of them and getting stronger, or if we are not taking care of them, deteriorating and getting closer to death. Good thought. I have definitely been moving backward the past few months. lots of stress and working lots of hours. eating out. bad choices. not exercising. I need to rely on God more for my weakness. Not try to do it alone. like I have for so long. I am a good person, I have a good life with my little family. I am blessed. I want to be around for them and not die young. I think of dying young everyday, and quite often sometimes several times a day. I think that being obese=death. and that I need to take care of me. I think I need to start with loving me and not being so critical of myself. I swear I am so negative on myself, I am never that negative on other people, I would never say the things to them that I say to myself....go figure...I know God loves me. Its' just I am frustrated with my self and feel like a failure in so many things. weight debt, housekeeping education...lots of things I haven't accomplished or cant' get a grip on consistently. balance is a hard thing. ALL I KNOW IS DAILY PRAYER WILL HELP ME AND GOD WILL HELP ME TO DO THE THINGS MOST IMPORTANT. the small and simple things I do, I will be blessed and great things can happen.