Day 4

Did I say that I am loving this workout! I was so sore today, and limping around some. We decided to do the yoga workout tonight instead of hte morning. I was tired, but I still did it and I feel great. It was hard for me as all the workouts are, due to my weight. HE does a lto of push ups and weight bearing exercises. I do my best and I dont' give up. It is hard but worth it!  I am so happy that I have this workout. I feel good.

Had a great valentines day. Herb had flowers delivered, the first time ever!  It made my year!  Eilee gave me a sweet card and a picture of a pink rose. she said it was made because I can't see any of my mom's pink roses on the rose bush in the winter. What a thoughtful girl. I am so blessed to be her mom. Being a mom is great. makes me want more kiddos!  I am hoping this exercise and weight loss is going to get me one!  I have to work on my eating. I ate a few things off program today.  some chocolate and potatoes and cake and ice cream...UGH. I looking back...I need to write everything down again. More people lose weight if they write down everything they eat...next goal...write down every single thing I eat....

I feel a bit over whelmed, with being sore and trying to get my house ready for Eilee's birthday party on Sunday/Monday.  I know I can do it.. I just need to make a to do list...I really hate cleaning.. I just want to say that. Once I get cleaning, I get into it..it is just getting going..when you are sore, it is harder!  LOL.  I also wish our sink wasnt' leaking.. I dont' have money to fix it right now, and have to use the left side only adn no garbage disposal use.  Not easy when it comes to dishes, but still better than the pioneers. Today was a good day. I am glad to be alive and feeling healthier everyday.

Tomorrow is my visit with the new OBGYN. I will post how that goes. I am going to ask all my concerns and fears and get her opinion about me having a baby at my age with diabetes, and at my weight.
I think I worry so much, because when I was first pregnant with Eilee and tried to get an OBGYN, they all told me they wouldn't take me because I weighed 30 pounds too much. They put a thoutth in my mind that I was at risk, when I had no known health problems.. I called 12 OBGYN inFfredericksburg and they all told me they wouldnt' take me as a patient and that I had to go down to Richmond.  For the first two months I went to Richmond for my appointments. I then worried all the time and was a mess. Thinking I would harm my baby at my weight. I delivered a healthy baby thanks to Dr Said Ali. He told me not to worry, and that I was a normal woman having a baby, and if anything came up, he woudl help em through it.  He also told me not to look things up online. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Dr ALi. I am kind of sad to go see another OBGYN because I love him so and he was so good to me.  He even came and help me when they were trying to put in the epidural and they wouldn't let Herb in.  The nurse said he never did that with anyone and I must be special.  He is great, If I deliver with him, it would have to be at southern Maryland hospital near the 495 beltway near washington DC in Prince Georges county. . I had to be 3 weeks int he hospital before Eilee was delivered, and it was so far away. I would prefer to be closer to home. so I am wishing and hoping that tomorrow goes well.

PS I actually weigh 30 pounds less than I did when I got pregnant with Eilee.  After Eilee was delivered, I had only gained 8 pounds. I then put on weight due to post partum depression.  I went to my highest weight ever.  I then lost 30 and then 30 and am working on making it 70.  So I am on my way and definitely healthier than past years.