Day 5

Today was a big day. I had an appointment with a new OBGYN. We talked about all my concerns. She reminded me that nothing is ever 100% sure you will or wont' get pregnant. She was very nice and encouraging.  I am going to take a blood test on day 3 of my period to see if my eggs are still good. (like if I am still producing them well)  I am also going to see an endocrinologist to more closely monitor my blood sugars and diabetes. She wants them under 95 in the morning. I have to lower the morning one for sure. She said that my pregnancy would be high risk no matter what because of my age and to be prepared at worst to spend the later part in a hospital again.  worst case scenario, but not to be afraid. To have more faith than fear and that if it is meant to happen it will. Not to stress about it. Give it 6 months of trying to get pregnant then think about other measures for fertility.  I am excited to take this test to find out if I have the ability to get  pregnant.  I still have regular periods, and that is good. I am going to fast next fast Sunday about this test. To be accepting of whatever it is.. good or bad.  To know God's will for our family.
THe best thing for diabetes is weight loss and diet and exercise. I am doing all of them. Working on it.
I felt so blessed. As I was driving home, I was putting pieces together and seeing God's hand in all my "vicissitudes"  (sudden changes in life)  (out of the ordinary occurrences) With each of these challenges, God has helped me through and I remain fairly healthy.
In my patriarchal blessing, it tells em that as I withstand the vicissitudes of life, I will prove myself worthy to enter into God's presence. God is helping me through each adn every one, and I am getting stronger.  All in all I was hopeful and happy with my visit.  God's will is always best. He knows what is best for us.  Mine and Herb's Patriarchal blessings talk of more children. We just need to figure out how and who needs to come to our family.
As far as TAPOUT goes. I was so tired and felt like I had no energy tonight to do the workout....just kidding, I did it legs and back. It was good and I felt more awake.  I have to go to work tomorrow and am dreading it. 5:30 comes early, especially on a Saturday.